Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Unknown Reasons

So, as I said in a previous post, I was dating a wonderful man in my ward. Unfortunately, all of that came crashing down on Sunday night. Needless to say, I was crushed. There were mixed emotions, but as I was getting ready for work this morning, it all started making sense.

When he mentioned that we should date, I felt the Spirit confirm that decision to me, so we went for it. For the last month, I've been working so hard on making the relationship work and didn't feel like he was making any effort at all. Apparently, he just didn't have any feelings beyond friendship for me. When he told me that on Sunday, it cut me to the core, but as I look at it now, we never changed in our relationship. We were just good friends. The hardest thing for me to figure out is why my Heavenly Father told me it was okay to date him. Although, I'm not sure if it was a test of my obedience or I needed to learn something, I'm just grateful that He knows enough and cares enough to teach me something. I have no bad feelings for him (the guy I was dating). I feel bad that I wasn't noticing the same things he was. I guess I was just ready to move out of singlehood forever.

Needless to say, I'm single and I'm ready and willing to learn whatever I need to. I'm doing everything I can to live the way I know I'm supposed to. I'm putting this whole matter in the Lord's hands and I'll be just fine.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Weekend Fun!!

So, my last weekend was tons of fun. On Friday, on my way home from work, my check engine light came on in my brand new XTerra. Needless to say, I was pretty upset because I've had the vehicle for 6 months. What could possibly be wrong with it??? So, I called my youngest brother, Ethan, who works on Nissans for a living and he said as long as it wasn't making funny sounds I would be okay.

So, I went to my friend, Angel's house to play. We played Guitar Hero and just had fun gab sessions.

Saturday morning, I woke up early to go to Cabela's with my Mom. Dad had to work, so he sent us on an errand. We had a great time down there. On our way back up from Lehi, I asked if we could stop at Wal-Mart because my shower head was ready to die and I really needed a new one. Then Mom and I helped each other with our Saturday chores. My friend, Cynthia, called me and said that she and her husband, Kalon wanted to take me on a picnic. I've never been on one, so I was stoked. So, we took the XTerra (yes, with the service light on) and went up the canyon for a picnic. It was beautiful up there!! I love the mountains!! On our way down from the canyon, Cynthia volunteered Kalon to put my new shower head on. So, we headed over to my house to put it on. My bathroom in my apartment was not put together all that well, so when Kalon went to take the old one off, the pipe broke. No water thankfully, but it was a bit distressing. Cynthia and Kalon felt awful, but I did not blame them one bit. It's the bathroom. Thankfully, my Dad and brother also know plumbing, so we did get the pipe fixed. But in the process of fixing the pipe, we had to cut the sheetrock. My uncle who did the bathroom did not use green sheetrock and so we found black mold growing all over the sheetrock. So, needless to say, I will be having to rip my bathroom up to get rid of all of that sheetrock. Whew!!! More money that I don't have, story of my life ;)

Sunday was like any normal Sunday. With all of the callings I have, its never a day of rest and I really don't get to enjoy the spirit of my meetings because I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Thankfully, I was able to go to my Parent's house for dinner and we had a wonderful discussion. I am truly blessed to have the parents I have. They are amazing people!!

Monday, Ethan took the XTerra in to his work. It started making funny sounds on Saturday after the canyon (I know I probably shouldn't have taken it up there), so I was driving my Sister's car, called The Little Put-Put. It's tiny! I didn't hear from him all day so I was going crazy trying to figure out what could possibly be wrong with the XTerra and praying it would be covered by the warranty. When I showed up at my Parent's house, the XTerra was sitting in the driveway but Ethan was no where to be found. I asked my Dad if he knew anything and he thought he's heard Ethan say something about $430. Ouch!!! So, Ethan finally showed up and I asked him what was wrong with it. Apparantly, one of my sensors wasn't working any longer, so they needed to replace it. Sensors weren't covered so I owed him almost $600!!! Double OUCH!!!! So, I got real quiet, trying to figure out if I truly needed to eat for the next month and then Ethan got his little smirk on his face and told me it was under warranty. The little punk!! I was ready to deck him one, but I restrained myself and thanked him for taking care of it.

Needless to say, my weekend was an adventure. I'm just grateful that it wasn't as costly an adventure as it could have been. :)